don't worry, i ain't going anyway...this is only the last post for this blog, and i gonna put the new post on another blog....the address is http://talesofteenager.blogspot.com...
well, happy following...^_^
Thursday, July 22, 2010
I hate bring.....
i always pay attention to the calendar, and i realized one thing; time flow extremely slow when you had nothing to do, and flow with light speed when you have something to do...XD
I can't believe that it's been only two months, two extremely long months that i feel like it's been 2 years...blah...i hate to being boring, FB, dota, O2 mania, anything that is playable on my lame laptop is nothing like old hags to me...
Completely lost my motivation already....
I can't believe that it's been only two months, two extremely long months that i feel like it's been 2 years...blah...i hate to being boring, FB, dota, O2 mania, anything that is playable on my lame laptop is nothing like old hags to me...
Completely lost my motivation already....
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Graduated..
my, my, my...almost one year ago, i coincidently saw my DCB seniors' convocation ceremony, but at that time, i never thought of it, and never had any intention to take it seriously...but, when it's come to MY convocation...i am so excited, nervous and yet, a little bit of sadness is found deep inside my heart, especially when i am ready to sleep...
I lie on my queen-size bed, but i can't sleep...i just can't calm down my mind and brain...they are overwhelmed with the convocation event happened, as well as some fragments of possible events occurred when i go to UK...although i ready to sleep on 12.00am....but i can't sleep, and the time i checked before my consciousness gone, it's 2,30am...
This isn't the worst, i wake up at 6.30am...god bless me...then, i login my FB, and surprise, i saw some of my friends uploaded the photos i.e 3 to 4 hours ago...well, he might be sleep very early today...well, moving on....then i played some games till 8.30am...then, i slept again, but this time, i can sleep much better than the previous...
Out of my expectation, i woke up at 12pm...the first thing i do after i wake up is to take a bath...to completely wake my mind up....i hated to be a mindless walking zombie...and taking a bath should do the tricks...
well, i'll try to upload the photos asap....XD
I lie on my queen-size bed, but i can't sleep...i just can't calm down my mind and brain...they are overwhelmed with the convocation event happened, as well as some fragments of possible events occurred when i go to UK...although i ready to sleep on 12.00am....but i can't sleep, and the time i checked before my consciousness gone, it's 2,30am...
This isn't the worst, i wake up at 6.30am...god bless me...then, i login my FB, and surprise, i saw some of my friends uploaded the photos i.e 3 to 4 hours ago...well, he might be sleep very early today...well, moving on....then i played some games till 8.30am...then, i slept again, but this time, i can sleep much better than the previous...
Out of my expectation, i woke up at 12pm...the first thing i do after i wake up is to take a bath...to completely wake my mind up....i hated to be a mindless walking zombie...and taking a bath should do the tricks...
well, i'll try to upload the photos asap....XD
Thursday, July 15, 2010
What a Rush!!
i just received a call from Kojadi, and they bring a bright notification to me that definitely boost my mood entirely to sky-rocket high!!
That Kojadi girl said that i can go to Wisma MCA to receive the first installment of my loan, which is RM25,000...with that, i can start to "officially" commence the start of my Student Visa application!!! And with this event, I completely understand and applied the fact of "you can say whatever you want, regardless it's a lie and as long as it's practical, logical and reasonable"...
I knew this fact long time ago, but I unable to apply, and understand it...i just simply tell the Kojadi staffs that I need the fund ASAP, with the reason of arrangement of time for Visa application. So, the fund supposed to be released on 21st of July, and I make it 16th!!! That's mean tomorrow!!!
Due to these things, i can foresee that the following days are eventful....
16th July, I'll take my funds from Kojadi, bank in the money, and wait for it to be transfer. After this, i gonna wait for a few days and make the TT to paid my tuition fees to University...
17th July, one of the important day to my family, my convocation ceremony. The reason why it's important for my family is because this is the highest education achievement made (the family i mean here doesn't include my cousins of course, their highest achievement is Bachelor Degree....i think...)
18th July, I will forcibly to take my grandma to the temple, together with my sister and cousin(maybe)...there, i'll be ram by tons of questions, curiosities, and requests...which are i would like to avoid it as much as possible....
well, these i can foresee until Sunday, the Monday schedule would be subjected to change, since there are many inconsistence factors....XD
That Kojadi girl said that i can go to Wisma MCA to receive the first installment of my loan, which is RM25,000...with that, i can start to "officially" commence the start of my Student Visa application!!! And with this event, I completely understand and applied the fact of "you can say whatever you want, regardless it's a lie and as long as it's practical, logical and reasonable"...
I knew this fact long time ago, but I unable to apply, and understand it...i just simply tell the Kojadi staffs that I need the fund ASAP, with the reason of arrangement of time for Visa application. So, the fund supposed to be released on 21st of July, and I make it 16th!!! That's mean tomorrow!!!
Due to these things, i can foresee that the following days are eventful....
16th July, I'll take my funds from Kojadi, bank in the money, and wait for it to be transfer. After this, i gonna wait for a few days and make the TT to paid my tuition fees to University...
17th July, one of the important day to my family, my convocation ceremony. The reason why it's important for my family is because this is the highest education achievement made (the family i mean here doesn't include my cousins of course, their highest achievement is Bachelor Degree....i think...)
18th July, I will forcibly to take my grandma to the temple, together with my sister and cousin(maybe)...there, i'll be ram by tons of questions, curiosities, and requests...which are i would like to avoid it as much as possible....
well, these i can foresee until Sunday, the Monday schedule would be subjected to change, since there are many inconsistence factors....XD
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
A little story here...
well, i just watch the TV and there is a small drama broadcasting, and i feel it's very meaningful, so i decided to put it here....
There is a king who like to hunting wild animals with his personal advisor. One day, when he is hunting, he heard a woman crying. He is curious, so he search the woman. Later, he found that woman, when he approaching closer to have a better examination on the woman, he never expect that the woman is an assassin.
That woman try to kill the king with her dagger. Although the king's bodyguard manage to defend the king, but unfortunately, one of the king's finger is injured and being cut off. Later, when the king back to his palace, his advisor comfort the king and say: "Your Majesty, please do not put the loss of your finger in mind. Since this might be the best choice made by fate. The lost of a finger is better than losing your life, Your Majesty!"
The king of course, frustrated, and say: "Of course it's the BEST choice made by fate! If I sentence to your death or imprison you, this would be another BEST choice i made to you!"
The advisor replied, "If this is your majesty choice, then i will accept my fate as well."
Nevertheless, the king never wanted to sentence his friend to death, since the advisor served him for years. So, he ordered to knights to put the advisor in jail.
After one month, the king is still angry to his loss of the finger, although it's healed, he decided to visit the villages with plain clothes alone, in order to improve the living standard of his country. But, he is ambushed by some barbarians(come on, i know what are you thinking, there are no barbarians if there is a land ruled, but this is what i saw, so be it...XD). They intent to make the king as their offering to their Goddess of Full Moon.
In the barbaric's tradition, the offerings must be a perfect being, without any disabilities, as their Goddess of Full Moon symbolize perfection. The king is examined one night before the ritual. To their surprise, the king lost one of his finger, so the barbarians must abandon their choice and they must hunt again for another perfect human.
The king is released, and return to his palace with the beast hide that the barbarians gave to him. The first thing he do after he returned to his palace is pay a visit to his advisor, instead of changing into a new, luxury clothes. He say, " You are right! If that day i didn't lost my finger, then i'll lost my life today!!!" Then the king tell his experience to his advisor."
After that, the advisor say in relieve after he listened to the king's encounter, "And i said Your Majesty made a best choice for me too!!"
The king confused, the advisor continued, "If that day your majesty didn't imprison me, then, i'll accompany your majesty for the visits. Then, i'll become the barbarians' offering instead yours!!"
The End...
Conclusion: well, think it yourself!!!!
There is a king who like to hunting wild animals with his personal advisor. One day, when he is hunting, he heard a woman crying. He is curious, so he search the woman. Later, he found that woman, when he approaching closer to have a better examination on the woman, he never expect that the woman is an assassin.
That woman try to kill the king with her dagger. Although the king's bodyguard manage to defend the king, but unfortunately, one of the king's finger is injured and being cut off. Later, when the king back to his palace, his advisor comfort the king and say: "Your Majesty, please do not put the loss of your finger in mind. Since this might be the best choice made by fate. The lost of a finger is better than losing your life, Your Majesty!"
The king of course, frustrated, and say: "Of course it's the BEST choice made by fate! If I sentence to your death or imprison you, this would be another BEST choice i made to you!"
The advisor replied, "If this is your majesty choice, then i will accept my fate as well."
Nevertheless, the king never wanted to sentence his friend to death, since the advisor served him for years. So, he ordered to knights to put the advisor in jail.
After one month, the king is still angry to his loss of the finger, although it's healed, he decided to visit the villages with plain clothes alone, in order to improve the living standard of his country. But, he is ambushed by some barbarians(come on, i know what are you thinking, there are no barbarians if there is a land ruled, but this is what i saw, so be it...XD). They intent to make the king as their offering to their Goddess of Full Moon.
In the barbaric's tradition, the offerings must be a perfect being, without any disabilities, as their Goddess of Full Moon symbolize perfection. The king is examined one night before the ritual. To their surprise, the king lost one of his finger, so the barbarians must abandon their choice and they must hunt again for another perfect human.
The king is released, and return to his palace with the beast hide that the barbarians gave to him. The first thing he do after he returned to his palace is pay a visit to his advisor, instead of changing into a new, luxury clothes. He say, " You are right! If that day i didn't lost my finger, then i'll lost my life today!!!" Then the king tell his experience to his advisor."
After that, the advisor say in relieve after he listened to the king's encounter, "And i said Your Majesty made a best choice for me too!!"
The king confused, the advisor continued, "If that day your majesty didn't imprison me, then, i'll accompany your majesty for the visits. Then, i'll become the barbarians' offering instead yours!!"
The End...
Conclusion: well, think it yourself!!!!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
feeling urge again....
Darn...had a daily routine with my mum...just after i had my breakfast, i start up my laptop...same old laptop, another daily routine within Facebook...then, i feel another urge to post something again...
just a either sanely or insanely hypothesis, this can be interpreted as i am thinking something out of circle again....my mind wants me to develop a habit that update my blog within two or three days period, like a daily instead...and this might helpful for me to first, share my life in UK once i go there, second, act as a dairy for to remember everything that develop my maturity and third, as a way to express my thoughts...XD
haiz....people around me, are either married, or had a girlfriend, or love she in secretly...just i had none...>_<
just a either sanely or insanely hypothesis, this can be interpreted as i am thinking something out of circle again....my mind wants me to develop a habit that update my blog within two or three days period, like a daily instead...and this might helpful for me to first, share my life in UK once i go there, second, act as a dairy for to remember everything that develop my maturity and third, as a way to express my thoughts...XD
haiz....people around me, are either married, or had a girlfriend, or love she in secretly...just i had none...>_<
Thursday, July 8, 2010
I am feeling urge....
this is not happening once, but many consecutive days since the previous post...i have the urge to post something, but when i clicked create a new post button, i paused, staring at the monitor, then keyboard, then facebook, finally the song list, which i wish i can switch my mood by changing the songs playing...but i got nothing that's worth to post it out....
maybe i gonna type out why i choose "The Other Promise", composed by Shimomura Youko, original soundtrack for Kingdom Heart 2: Final Mix.....Main music components used: piano, violin, flute....secondary music components used: clang, electronic keyboard(maybe)...
since this is an original soundtrack, so the scene it is played is when Sora fight with his Nobody, Roxas....a very interesting and epic fight for both of them....i just find this soundtrack very calming, and can act as a lullaby, if you completely immerse yourself into the melody....
That's all...but another thing comes into my mind...
It's seems like, no, obviously all of my friends are working very hard, regardless which field; study, working, and exercises as well.....while I, just sitting there for whole, got nothing to do...well, not completely, because i'm just waiting replies....
Most of my ex-classmates are continue their advance diploma at college, and i had a copy of their timetable...i just had the urge like want to join the class, but i afraid the questions will ramming my again...if the questions are come from friends, i wouldn't mind it much but if from the lecturers....well, i guess i made some reputations around the lecturers and they definitely will remember me.....i am just embarrassed if the lecturers ask some either harsh or silly questions.....
One of my secondary school friend is working now, while taking a part time ACCA paper...and sound like he is working every moments when i call him, even after 8.00pm night.....he said something like this industrial training can actually gain many experiences and so on....
My one and only childhood friend, just called me to train some badminton lessons so that he could make himself slimmer, as well as his skill on badminton...he even had a plan for what to be trained when we having the session....taking the matter so serious.....
i guess, i am now unmotivated, until i go to UK, and having a whole new, while unfamiliar life there....
All The Best My Friends...
maybe i gonna type out why i choose "The Other Promise", composed by Shimomura Youko, original soundtrack for Kingdom Heart 2: Final Mix.....Main music components used: piano, violin, flute....secondary music components used: clang, electronic keyboard(maybe)...
since this is an original soundtrack, so the scene it is played is when Sora fight with his Nobody, Roxas....a very interesting and epic fight for both of them....i just find this soundtrack very calming, and can act as a lullaby, if you completely immerse yourself into the melody....
That's all...but another thing comes into my mind...
It's seems like, no, obviously all of my friends are working very hard, regardless which field; study, working, and exercises as well.....while I, just sitting there for whole, got nothing to do...well, not completely, because i'm just waiting replies....
Most of my ex-classmates are continue their advance diploma at college, and i had a copy of their timetable...i just had the urge like want to join the class, but i afraid the questions will ramming my again...if the questions are come from friends, i wouldn't mind it much but if from the lecturers....well, i guess i made some reputations around the lecturers and they definitely will remember me.....i am just embarrassed if the lecturers ask some either harsh or silly questions.....
One of my secondary school friend is working now, while taking a part time ACCA paper...and sound like he is working every moments when i call him, even after 8.00pm night.....he said something like this industrial training can actually gain many experiences and so on....
My one and only childhood friend, just called me to train some badminton lessons so that he could make himself slimmer, as well as his skill on badminton...he even had a plan for what to be trained when we having the session....taking the matter so serious.....
i guess, i am now unmotivated, until i go to UK, and having a whole new, while unfamiliar life there....
All The Best My Friends...
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Racism....
although i don't had anything particular to post, but i still have the intention to post something out, so be it...
first talk about my current status, i am busying to apply my student visa, which is a fatal point of overseas study for every student....
since there are many people "jump aeroplane", causing UK's government to take serious action for, in order to prevent UK become current status of Malaysia....mean too much non-local labors...especially illegal one...
for that, the British Council take many harsh measurement to prevent that from happening....this will making the student to prepare many, many documents for that...bank statements, CAS number, offer letter, reference letter and so on.....the CAS number is abbreviate for...forgot, anyway, it's a serial number that link to a database, which the officers in British Council will search my name using this number, to show that i am accepted in university, and others related information as well....
I roughly calculated, and i need total of 15+ documents, while i just lack three things only....the bank letter, CAS number and my fund from Kojadi....so probably, no, DEFINITELY no more problems for me to so called "survive" in UK for one year...but the problem still there for my second year life...
this is why the post title related, i heard the Bank Raky*t outside the KL area, maybe Subang, Rawang branch etc can provide study loan for non-government servants applicants. And i tried Rawang branch but end up in disappointing...but i still haven't give up my hope yet, so i go to Subang branch on Friday...
firstly, i met the branch executive, and he willing to provide any information and requirements to me to apply the loan, so i go back, prepare everything and then i go back there on Monday...but that guy is not there, and i was served by other guy....
after he read through everything, he said something like "my mum's salary are not trustworthy enough to be an applicant", then he explain "there are no payslips to prove my mum's salary is RM3,500 per month"...then he ask us(my dad and I) to provide the Borang J in order to prove my mum's salary...my dad shown him the income tax receipt, but he said still "not strong enough to be trusted"....
then on the way back, my dad said "if my mum's salary isn't that much, what's the point to state how much my mum earned that much and paid RM1,000+ income tax?!"...so, what's the point???
Then, there are only one word in my mind, "RACISM"...the meaning is...
first talk about my current status, i am busying to apply my student visa, which is a fatal point of overseas study for every student....
since there are many people "jump aeroplane", causing UK's government to take serious action for, in order to prevent UK become current status of Malaysia....mean too much non-local labors...especially illegal one...
for that, the British Council take many harsh measurement to prevent that from happening....this will making the student to prepare many, many documents for that...bank statements, CAS number, offer letter, reference letter and so on.....the CAS number is abbreviate for...forgot, anyway, it's a serial number that link to a database, which the officers in British Council will search my name using this number, to show that i am accepted in university, and others related information as well....
I roughly calculated, and i need total of 15+ documents, while i just lack three things only....the bank letter, CAS number and my fund from Kojadi....so probably, no, DEFINITELY no more problems for me to so called "survive" in UK for one year...but the problem still there for my second year life...
this is why the post title related, i heard the Bank Raky*t outside the KL area, maybe Subang, Rawang branch etc can provide study loan for non-government servants applicants. And i tried Rawang branch but end up in disappointing...but i still haven't give up my hope yet, so i go to Subang branch on Friday...
firstly, i met the branch executive, and he willing to provide any information and requirements to me to apply the loan, so i go back, prepare everything and then i go back there on Monday...but that guy is not there, and i was served by other guy....
after he read through everything, he said something like "my mum's salary are not trustworthy enough to be an applicant", then he explain "there are no payslips to prove my mum's salary is RM3,500 per month"...then he ask us(my dad and I) to provide the Borang J in order to prove my mum's salary...my dad shown him the income tax receipt, but he said still "not strong enough to be trusted"....
then on the way back, my dad said "if my mum's salary isn't that much, what's the point to state how much my mum earned that much and paid RM1,000+ income tax?!"...so, what's the point???
Then, there are only one word in my mind, "RACISM"...the meaning is...
racism ['reɪsɪzm]
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Thursday, July 1, 2010
Time Flew By...
I just watched Toy Story 3, which was invited by my friends on very last minutes...what kind of "last minutes"? the movie started on 8.15pm, and i got this invitation on 7.00pm...
Anyway, I'll just point out the plot or something...The owner of the toys, Andy grown up to a 18y years old teenager, and going to college. He are forced to make the decision of how to handling the toys that accompany him since he was a child...Andy decided to take the cowboy toy(don't know the name, i didn't watch the previous two) to the college, the others, well, he doesn't want to threw them away, so he want to secretly to store them at the attic, while his mum accidentally throw the others...so the adventure begin again...
well, the ending are touching, and i do believe that this is the end of Toy Story, or so whatever the story writer said so...but it let me to think of something else beside the ending, plots etc...
Time really flew by, when some of neighbors around my mum's shop asked where am i going to continue my study, and i always let my mum answer the questions, because i do not want to act like very proud people, because most of them are aunties, and in their logic, going oversea, especially UK or US are consider very clever, and rich too...you got the point there...
Then those aunties started to reminiscing, most of them saying like "....wah!!!! your son become so well-grown young man already...before that he was so thin, and short....now look at the height and muscles..."
well, those aunties in my eyes didn't change too much, except the hair color, and the aging pattens that appear on their faces...right now, the start of July, two and a half months to go for me to stay in my hometown, and I am REALLY going to UK...thought the obstacles does appear.....
Officially, my flight date will be 15th of September 2010, the exact time still need to be updated...and i am busying with my Visa application (though I was just lacking three documents and the fund from Kojadi)....
If I settle my Visa application, all I'll be doing probably will be spending the remaining times with friends, and started to pack my things....just like Andy in Toy Story 3....XD
Anyway, I'll just point out the plot or something...The owner of the toys, Andy grown up to a 18y years old teenager, and going to college. He are forced to make the decision of how to handling the toys that accompany him since he was a child...Andy decided to take the cowboy toy(don't know the name, i didn't watch the previous two) to the college, the others, well, he doesn't want to threw them away, so he want to secretly to store them at the attic, while his mum accidentally throw the others...so the adventure begin again...
well, the ending are touching, and i do believe that this is the end of Toy Story, or so whatever the story writer said so...but it let me to think of something else beside the ending, plots etc...
Time really flew by, when some of neighbors around my mum's shop asked where am i going to continue my study, and i always let my mum answer the questions, because i do not want to act like very proud people, because most of them are aunties, and in their logic, going oversea, especially UK or US are consider very clever, and rich too...you got the point there...
Then those aunties started to reminiscing, most of them saying like "....wah!!!! your son become so well-grown young man already...before that he was so thin, and short....now look at the height and muscles..."
well, those aunties in my eyes didn't change too much, except the hair color, and the aging pattens that appear on their faces...right now, the start of July, two and a half months to go for me to stay in my hometown, and I am REALLY going to UK...thought the obstacles does appear.....
Officially, my flight date will be 15th of September 2010, the exact time still need to be updated...and i am busying with my Visa application (though I was just lacking three documents and the fund from Kojadi)....
If I settle my Visa application, all I'll be doing probably will be spending the remaining times with friends, and started to pack my things....just like Andy in Toy Story 3....XD
Sunday, June 27, 2010
You'll never know unless you are encounter it
Well, most of my friends knew that i am neither a football enthusiast nor football hater...just that i never understand why the people like to shout "GOAL", "BOO!!!" etc when the match come climax...
Just so happen that one of my secondary school friend is a football enthusiast, and he scheduled so perfectly that after abandoning the badminton session for several consecutive weeks, now joining back and making the haste to the usual spot to watch FIFA World Cup, Korea vs Uruguay...
as his friend, i do not want to extinguish his flame, and excitement, so i watched too, and in fact, this is the first football match that i watch from the beginning to the end....i really mean it, usually i never stare at the screen that broadcasting football match for more than 3 minutes....
of course, i still really don't understand completely what kind of excitement and enthusiasm will be felt during the match, but i still can feel it partially...although i didn't shout "GOAL", because i didn't support neither Korea nor Uruguay. Still, i was hoping that Korea can win because all of us are Asian...XD
maybe i'll try to watch wrestling matches, which i discover it's interesting recently, see whether i'll get excited or not....
Just so happen that one of my secondary school friend is a football enthusiast, and he scheduled so perfectly that after abandoning the badminton session for several consecutive weeks, now joining back and making the haste to the usual spot to watch FIFA World Cup, Korea vs Uruguay...
as his friend, i do not want to extinguish his flame, and excitement, so i watched too, and in fact, this is the first football match that i watch from the beginning to the end....i really mean it, usually i never stare at the screen that broadcasting football match for more than 3 minutes....
of course, i still really don't understand completely what kind of excitement and enthusiasm will be felt during the match, but i still can feel it partially...although i didn't shout "GOAL", because i didn't support neither Korea nor Uruguay. Still, i was hoping that Korea can win because all of us are Asian...XD
maybe i'll try to watch wrestling matches, which i discover it's interesting recently, see whether i'll get excited or not....
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The crime physiology deep within me...
yuck....i am started to think that i become much more violent than before...firstly wrestling, then now like tease the polices....well, not the actual world, but virtual world...
i am talking about the Need For Speed: Most Wanted...just brought it on Saturday, but then the whole Sunday i keep playing, just enjoy the feeling of teasing the polices and evade the pursuits, while try to immobilize police cars, and cost as much damages to the by-passing vehicles...
it's very fun to just doing that.....
i am talking about the Need For Speed: Most Wanted...just brought it on Saturday, but then the whole Sunday i keep playing, just enjoy the feeling of teasing the polices and evade the pursuits, while try to immobilize police cars, and cost as much damages to the by-passing vehicles...
it's very fun to just doing that.....
Friday, June 18, 2010
I treat you as the way you treat me....
i just don't understand, I treat my mum as the way i treat with my friends, simply because i do not want so much ways to treating for me to remember...i rather using these brain cells to memorize other matters that's much more important and useful....
then the other day, she ask me how's the progress of the Kojadi loan, then i said, i left the contact number at home (where i am at shop), then she is like distracted or something, obviously didn't listening at all...so i just keep internet-surfing...
Then later, my dad come back from his errands, then he talked about opening an account for me when i am going to UK, then my mum asked again the same question, i answered with a louder volume, then she scold me; "i am your mum, and you talk to me like THIS??!!", i said nothing, but i think my eyes is already blazing with anger, then she shouted again, "WHAT?! ARE YOU ANGER WITH SOMETHING?!"
Then just keep shouting "if other people's mum are better, just go and be their son" , "don't take care your own matters"...things like these...
Then my dad called my sister to ask grandpa to turn back and take me home...of course, she was still shouting when i exited the shop without looking back, what was she shouted? didn't listening at all, because i was too frustrated....
I just don't understand, I am acting nice to you, but you don't appreciate it, rather you just treat me like I am a rude kid....对你好，你就乱乱骂人。对你不好，你又呱呱吵。
in the end, i am the one who gonna be blamed, regardless i was right or wrong at the first place....
I just don't understand....
then the other day, she ask me how's the progress of the Kojadi loan, then i said, i left the contact number at home (where i am at shop), then she is like distracted or something, obviously didn't listening at all...so i just keep internet-surfing...
Then later, my dad come back from his errands, then he talked about opening an account for me when i am going to UK, then my mum asked again the same question, i answered with a louder volume, then she scold me; "i am your mum, and you talk to me like THIS??!!", i said nothing, but i think my eyes is already blazing with anger, then she shouted again, "WHAT?! ARE YOU ANGER WITH SOMETHING?!"
Then just keep shouting "if other people's mum are better, just go and be their son" , "don't take care your own matters"...things like these...
Then my dad called my sister to ask grandpa to turn back and take me home...of course, she was still shouting when i exited the shop without looking back, what was she shouted? didn't listening at all, because i was too frustrated....
I just don't understand, I am acting nice to you, but you don't appreciate it, rather you just treat me like I am a rude kid....对你好，你就乱乱骂人。对你不好，你又呱呱吵。
in the end, i am the one who gonna be blamed, regardless i was right or wrong at the first place....
I just don't understand....
Friday, June 11, 2010
People do CHANGE....
well, the people i mentioned are not very particular some one i know....but in fact i am that particular people...
just a very simple sample, i am not very fond of wrestling and pilot-based games like WWE and Ace Combat, but right now i like it...
WWE first, i think it's good when you are frustrated with something, and you want to let go of your rage on some one...this is a good choice because you can stomp your opponents and laugh at it while no one is really get hurt...in the latest series of WWE 2010, it can let you build your own wrestler and move sets that can let you "torture" the computer player....
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Move on to Ace Combat, i just it interesting only, that's all....but i can't play it when i am frustrated, because you will get annoyed when the target dodge/counter your attacks and so on....
I still found the WWE is much more interesting....
just a very simple sample, i am not very fond of wrestling and pilot-based games like WWE and Ace Combat, but right now i like it...
WWE first, i think it's good when you are frustrated with something, and you want to let go of your rage on some one...this is a good choice because you can stomp your opponents and laugh at it while no one is really get hurt...in the latest series of WWE 2010, it can let you build your own wrestler and move sets that can let you "torture" the computer player....
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Move on to Ace Combat, i just it interesting only, that's all....but i can't play it when i am frustrated, because you will get annoyed when the target dodge/counter your attacks and so on....
I still found the WWE is much more interesting....
Friday, June 4, 2010
I don't want to be doesn't mean i can't be....
I just don't understand, why even my mum still don't understand COMPLETELY my personalities?
1.) I remain silence doesn't mean i don't had any comments, opinions and objections...
2.) I didn't take care the important things first doesn't mean i don't know how to allocate the priorities...
3.) I didn't planned anything doesn't mean i don't know how to plan...
4.) I keep playing the games doesn't mean i am a lazy person...
start from the 1st point:
these occurred quite often recently because i didn't go to school, so i have a lot of time to staying in the shop and helping my mum out when there is necessarily. For this, i being scolded for a lot of time...the truth is, i respect my parents, so I didn't tell them what am i really thinking, the eastern polite manner...from what i can see from the movies, especially the production of UK and US, the children always tell their heart, i envy, and jealous for them able to tell what they are reallying thinking to their parents. But this will never applied on my parents, because they are still "old-minded", keep saying that they are the "absolute right", and have much more experience than me, using the old phase: I ate more salt than you ate rice. Sometimes, I still correct them if they make mistake, but most of the time, they will scold me, no matter what kind of manner i used, anger, joke, mock, kind and everything...
Than the 2nd point:
Just the case happen everyday, since my April Exam result is released. My mum keep command me to search around the informations of loans, scholarships etc, because they can't support me fully to study abroad. And i did, within 30 minutes, and after i scanned through the documents required, i alway stopped and bookmark the website for future usage. Why i stopped? Simply I just need an "unconditional offer letter" from the University of Chester...and chain effect, i'll need my transcript and my letter of completion (the letter that prove i completed my diploma course)...this is where i stopped at my current progress to study abroad...but I don't just sit there and shaking my legs, instead i take actions to apply these documents. And i swear I putted all of my efforts for all of the time...the officers didn't do their works, so what can i do?! keep complaining them and they will just smile at you, said something like under progress...I always plan everything based on their priorities, but what the point my mum keep scolding me i don't know how to judge??!!
Move on 3rd point:
This is what i most frustrated with...i had planned everything in my mind, no matter what...settling things, journeys, gaming, handling important things and everything that's needed to be planned...and back to 1st point, i don't speak them up because i respect my parents, and prevent get scolded if they don't like the plan...i had everything in my mind, and i can judge myself i like to plan everything, if you willing to let me plan...and this is the point where i can always have an argument with my parent...they just don't tell me everything...I want to help them if they are facing some trouble, as long as they can listen my opinion...but they just said "kids don't mess up the adults' matters"...what am i?! A three years-old children?! come on, i am twenty already!! and i had the rights to share my mind, and using an old phase again, "to heads are better then one", even now it's three brains together!!! the ancestors said, the viewers are always having the clearest mind, and i completely trust with it!!! I can't be helped when it's need to be done with my parents, but my plans is always referable!!!!! and my mum just said i don't know how to plan, i just don't want to hurt your honor and feeling okay??!!
Finally, 4th point:
I played games just because i want to killing the times only, and conclude every points above, this is what i can do when there is no customers, no actions that i must taken myself....
and i just don't understand why they can't trust me?! even some of my friends said i had a god-gifted brain with such good analysis skill and planning?!
I wonder if i was a great tactician in my previous life....if had any....
1.) I remain silence doesn't mean i don't had any comments, opinions and objections...
2.) I didn't take care the important things first doesn't mean i don't know how to allocate the priorities...
3.) I didn't planned anything doesn't mean i don't know how to plan...
4.) I keep playing the games doesn't mean i am a lazy person...
start from the 1st point:
these occurred quite often recently because i didn't go to school, so i have a lot of time to staying in the shop and helping my mum out when there is necessarily. For this, i being scolded for a lot of time...the truth is, i respect my parents, so I didn't tell them what am i really thinking, the eastern polite manner...from what i can see from the movies, especially the production of UK and US, the children always tell their heart, i envy, and jealous for them able to tell what they are reallying thinking to their parents. But this will never applied on my parents, because they are still "old-minded", keep saying that they are the "absolute right", and have much more experience than me, using the old phase: I ate more salt than you ate rice. Sometimes, I still correct them if they make mistake, but most of the time, they will scold me, no matter what kind of manner i used, anger, joke, mock, kind and everything...
Than the 2nd point:
Just the case happen everyday, since my April Exam result is released. My mum keep command me to search around the informations of loans, scholarships etc, because they can't support me fully to study abroad. And i did, within 30 minutes, and after i scanned through the documents required, i alway stopped and bookmark the website for future usage. Why i stopped? Simply I just need an "unconditional offer letter" from the University of Chester...and chain effect, i'll need my transcript and my letter of completion (the letter that prove i completed my diploma course)...this is where i stopped at my current progress to study abroad...but I don't just sit there and shaking my legs, instead i take actions to apply these documents. And i swear I putted all of my efforts for all of the time...the officers didn't do their works, so what can i do?! keep complaining them and they will just smile at you, said something like under progress...I always plan everything based on their priorities, but what the point my mum keep scolding me i don't know how to judge??!!
Move on 3rd point:
This is what i most frustrated with...i had planned everything in my mind, no matter what...settling things, journeys, gaming, handling important things and everything that's needed to be planned...and back to 1st point, i don't speak them up because i respect my parents, and prevent get scolded if they don't like the plan...i had everything in my mind, and i can judge myself i like to plan everything, if you willing to let me plan...and this is the point where i can always have an argument with my parent...they just don't tell me everything...I want to help them if they are facing some trouble, as long as they can listen my opinion...but they just said "kids don't mess up the adults' matters"...what am i?! A three years-old children?! come on, i am twenty already!! and i had the rights to share my mind, and using an old phase again, "to heads are better then one", even now it's three brains together!!! the ancestors said, the viewers are always having the clearest mind, and i completely trust with it!!! I can't be helped when it's need to be done with my parents, but my plans is always referable!!!!! and my mum just said i don't know how to plan, i just don't want to hurt your honor and feeling okay??!!
Finally, 4th point:
I played games just because i want to killing the times only, and conclude every points above, this is what i can do when there is no customers, no actions that i must taken myself....
and i just don't understand why they can't trust me?! even some of my friends said i had a god-gifted brain with such good analysis skill and planning?!
I wonder if i was a great tactician in my previous life....if had any....
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
The Flaw in the Plan....
money is really a matter after all....actually, i think it's not hard to get the money for me to go study abroad, especially i can confirm i can go to UK when the starting of this year...but the low performance issue in TxR College caused endless of troubles....if and only if they can increase their performance, and i got what i want, i think i'll shaking my legs, waiting the flight date and study there....
right now, i had the possibility of can't go to UK study for this year, and what even worst is, I will end up in not getting what certificate that i want....just what kind of stupid rule that a student visa must had a certain amount of money in a bank account for more than 28 days....
right now, i feel very worried, confused, and helpless...this problem bothered me for several weeks already, and i just want to get some comforts from friends...but when i meet them, what they said are actually doing even deeper stabs into my mind...
the old slogan really mean it, "words is the most powerful weapon to cause chaos, even much more destructive than nuclear weapon, and much more serious aftermath after natural disaster"
"why are you here?"
"why you come back?"
"are you going to continue advance?"
naturally, i act like nothing and replied in an innocent, helpless manner, sometime, even joking, and mocking, but in fact, i felt my heart dropped into bottomless dark hole...these kind of questions sound like i am an alien in college, whether it's purposely or just a question popped up in the mind and asked without hesitation....
eventually, i'll forget it because i believe they just curious...so i focus my hollow mind on winning the matches of badminton...but i found it's very pointless when the partner making mistakes, and what's causing my anger, is the partner scold me back for some reason....
in the end, i giving up on that, and i hold a slightest light of hope that my posts on facebook and blog can get some comfort, comments or anything else...but after u staring the screen and keep refreshing the pages, there are no red icon appear at the top of the facebook's bar, and the value of the page loaded in my blog does not increase even one unit, not to mention the shoutmix's latest message is posted like one month ago....
i want to meet them, but i'll get rammed with questions....
i want to call them, just to having a lunch, a gym session, a badminton session etc, but i can predict the replies with absolute accuracy...which is no...
this is very reasonable prediction, since that most of them may take a glimpse, but no time to post a short comment and stay on the page for few minutes...
i started to feel like i gonna become a stranger with them already......
right now, i had the possibility of can't go to UK study for this year, and what even worst is, I will end up in not getting what certificate that i want....just what kind of stupid rule that a student visa must had a certain amount of money in a bank account for more than 28 days....
right now, i feel very worried, confused, and helpless...this problem bothered me for several weeks already, and i just want to get some comforts from friends...but when i meet them, what they said are actually doing even deeper stabs into my mind...
the old slogan really mean it, "words is the most powerful weapon to cause chaos, even much more destructive than nuclear weapon, and much more serious aftermath after natural disaster"
"why are you here?"
"why you come back?"
"are you going to continue advance?"
naturally, i act like nothing and replied in an innocent, helpless manner, sometime, even joking, and mocking, but in fact, i felt my heart dropped into bottomless dark hole...these kind of questions sound like i am an alien in college, whether it's purposely or just a question popped up in the mind and asked without hesitation....
eventually, i'll forget it because i believe they just curious...so i focus my hollow mind on winning the matches of badminton...but i found it's very pointless when the partner making mistakes, and what's causing my anger, is the partner scold me back for some reason....
in the end, i giving up on that, and i hold a slightest light of hope that my posts on facebook and blog can get some comfort, comments or anything else...but after u staring the screen and keep refreshing the pages, there are no red icon appear at the top of the facebook's bar, and the value of the page loaded in my blog does not increase even one unit, not to mention the shoutmix's latest message is posted like one month ago....
i want to meet them, but i'll get rammed with questions....
i want to call them, just to having a lunch, a gym session, a badminton session etc, but i can predict the replies with absolute accuracy...which is no...
this is very reasonable prediction, since that most of them may take a glimpse, but no time to post a short comment and stay on the page for few minutes...
i started to feel like i gonna become a stranger with them already......
Sunday, May 30, 2010
What's the point?
just nothing very significant, but it does bother me...
just two consecutive night i dream about my friends, and i felt it's very real....
about what? nothing particular, just studying....
just two consecutive night i dream about my friends, and i felt it's very real....
about what? nothing particular, just studying....
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Recent Activities
well, most of my friends continue their respectively advance diploma while i left out...kinda empty and boring because of nothing else to do but to wait the documents issued from college...
so i would take any chance to go out with friends, although most of the time is i invite them. but before i send the invitation, i and foresee the reply, so the invitation never send out. well, i understand the situation, so i rather dont bother them with somethings that not very significant...
i just completed my personal statement, and i am very frustrated from the begin and to the end...this does not suit my style...the problem i faced every time i write an essay is i dont know how to start, but once i done the first paragraph, everything would be extremely smooth, some times even i can't stop writing because the ideas is keep coming...but this time is different, i had no experience for writing a personal statement....now i understand why the tips i searched from the internet having a almost same meaning introduction..."one the most frustrated essay..", "...you would not want to do it again..."......
well, it cost me almost 2 hours to complete it with 480 words...i am not sure whether it's too much or too little...i follow standard format (12 font size and times new roman, single spacing), and it just three quarter full on a A4 paper....well anyway...tomorrow i'll go to college and get it a check from my previous teacher....
Tomorrow will be a busy day....
so i would take any chance to go out with friends, although most of the time is i invite them. but before i send the invitation, i and foresee the reply, so the invitation never send out. well, i understand the situation, so i rather dont bother them with somethings that not very significant...
i just completed my personal statement, and i am very frustrated from the begin and to the end...this does not suit my style...the problem i faced every time i write an essay is i dont know how to start, but once i done the first paragraph, everything would be extremely smooth, some times even i can't stop writing because the ideas is keep coming...but this time is different, i had no experience for writing a personal statement....now i understand why the tips i searched from the internet having a almost same meaning introduction..."one the most frustrated essay..", "...you would not want to do it again..."......
well, it cost me almost 2 hours to complete it with 480 words...i am not sure whether it's too much or too little...i follow standard format (12 font size and times new roman, single spacing), and it just three quarter full on a A4 paper....well anyway...tomorrow i'll go to college and get it a check from my previous teacher....
Tomorrow will be a busy day....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Unofficially First Advance Diploma Day...
When I purposely enter the lecture hall late, I was pounded with questions; "eh?! i thought you said you didn't continue to advance?", "huh? why you come to college??", "aei, Xemnas a, Why you come here?!"
My reaction, of course, answered these question without rephrasing; "got three things to do, check result, apply transcript and get a sign on my reference letter."
But in my mind, i didn't tell anyone but confessed at here, "why can't i go back just paying a visit and have a lunch??" well anyway...
I arrived at college by approximately 8.50am, then i stayed at the new CITC lab, to settle several things, waiting the result to release, print out the reference letter, click Facebook, and help my mum to print out the map of route to visit their relatives (with the help of Google map). Simple enough...
Then 10.05am, a little bit late then my schedule because i gamble on the result will be release before i leave the lab, but still the officers' efficiency are disappointing me...i rushed to Miss Cheng's office, mt previous English Language tutor, to get her sign, since she is the one who do the reference letter for me...Thanks You Miss Cheng...XD
After that, I chatted with Miss Cheng a little bit, well, not a little, just less or more than 30 minutes . I was impressed by her, because i never knew she was staying at UK before. She asked me where i study, and how's the fees everything, the usual staffs. After this, she suggested how to use the remaining time at here since that i didn't find a part time job...
She suggested that i should make some friends via any channels at Chester, so that i can get some helps from them i.e getting to know to the surrounding, settle some daily life issues even can get some cheaper or free daily needs like plates, blanket and bed. Well, since i have the channel of agent, and the power of searching other people's blog online, i believe i can know some of the virtual friends within 2 weeks and gather all of the information within another 2 weeks.
Well, Miss Cheng said the whole progress is gonna to take months to complete, but i assure her that i can done it within 2 weeks to know all of the lifestyle of students in Chester, and befriend with the students there within another 2 weeks...it isn't very hard after all...^_^
I leave Miss Cheng's office on 11.05am, then i go to library to check my result. Actually, I am little disappointed because i got all B+ for all of the subjects i took...it's BM, Forensic Science and Business Management. My CGPA rosed from 3.19 to 3.22...not very satisfying...T_T
Around 11.10am, i started to feel confused, what should i do next? Then i had it in mind: go to lecture hall, have a free cold air then have a lunch with my gang. So i purposely make my self panting by running so that i have a reason of being late to enter the lecture hall. Luckily the lecturer hardly to paid any attention to me...
After the lunch, while impressed by my large fried rice already increase the price from RM3.50 to RM4 while i still paid RM3.50, bid farewell to my gang, chit chat a little bit with other friends, i went to Examination Department to apply transcript, then go to SAS office to request the letter that saying i completed Diploma level...then i when back home alone...
Continue to read Trudi Canavan's The Black Magician Trilogy Book 2: The Novice....nice story actually....
My reaction, of course, answered these question without rephrasing; "got three things to do, check result, apply transcript and get a sign on my reference letter."
But in my mind, i didn't tell anyone but confessed at here, "why can't i go back just paying a visit and have a lunch??" well anyway...
I arrived at college by approximately 8.50am, then i stayed at the new CITC lab, to settle several things, waiting the result to release, print out the reference letter, click Facebook, and help my mum to print out the map of route to visit their relatives (with the help of Google map). Simple enough...
Then 10.05am, a little bit late then my schedule because i gamble on the result will be release before i leave the lab, but still the officers' efficiency are disappointing me...i rushed to Miss Cheng's office, mt previous English Language tutor, to get her sign, since she is the one who do the reference letter for me...Thanks You Miss Cheng...XD
After that, I chatted with Miss Cheng a little bit, well, not a little, just less or more than 30 minutes . I was impressed by her, because i never knew she was staying at UK before. She asked me where i study, and how's the fees everything, the usual staffs. After this, she suggested how to use the remaining time at here since that i didn't find a part time job...
She suggested that i should make some friends via any channels at Chester, so that i can get some helps from them i.e getting to know to the surrounding, settle some daily life issues even can get some cheaper or free daily needs like plates, blanket and bed. Well, since i have the channel of agent, and the power of searching other people's blog online, i believe i can know some of the virtual friends within 2 weeks and gather all of the information within another 2 weeks.
Well, Miss Cheng said the whole progress is gonna to take months to complete, but i assure her that i can done it within 2 weeks to know all of the lifestyle of students in Chester, and befriend with the students there within another 2 weeks...it isn't very hard after all...^_^
I leave Miss Cheng's office on 11.05am, then i go to library to check my result. Actually, I am little disappointed because i got all B+ for all of the subjects i took...it's BM, Forensic Science and Business Management. My CGPA rosed from 3.19 to 3.22...not very satisfying...T_T
Around 11.10am, i started to feel confused, what should i do next? Then i had it in mind: go to lecture hall, have a free cold air then have a lunch with my gang. So i purposely make my self panting by running so that i have a reason of being late to enter the lecture hall. Luckily the lecturer hardly to paid any attention to me...
After the lunch, while impressed by my large fried rice already increase the price from RM3.50 to RM4 while i still paid RM3.50, bid farewell to my gang, chit chat a little bit with other friends, i went to Examination Department to apply transcript, then go to SAS office to request the letter that saying i completed Diploma level...then i when back home alone...
Continue to read Trudi Canavan's The Black Magician Trilogy Book 2: The Novice....nice story actually....
Friday, May 14, 2010
Mr Feng Shui in my house!!!
as title said, my mum bring a Mr Feng Shui to shop, i firstly ignore him first, but soon after i realized that my mum, dad and granny (grandpa go to fishing..) very respect of him. he looked around the shop, gave some comments that i purposely not to heard it. Then he sat down at the counter.
When I stand up, my mum dragged me in, introducing me to him. He asked me to let him to see my palm, and i obeyed. As he examining my palm, i looking at his eyes, well, just ordinary old man's eyes. Then he said out of blue, "don't fight when you age of 22", everybody will be stunned in a very short period. But I didn't said something, then he said something very funny.
He said my fate/destiny is here, and it's is made from last year. I said nothing of course, but i saw my mum looked satisfied. Then he said i'll engage marriage at a very young age. Well, i didn't have a girlfriend, how come will pop up a wife for me?!
Soon, he left with my mum and granny. And i don't understand why.....sweat.....>_<
When I stand up, my mum dragged me in, introducing me to him. He asked me to let him to see my palm, and i obeyed. As he examining my palm, i looking at his eyes, well, just ordinary old man's eyes. Then he said out of blue, "don't fight when you age of 22", everybody will be stunned in a very short period. But I didn't said something, then he said something very funny.
He said my fate/destiny is here, and it's is made from last year. I said nothing of course, but i saw my mum looked satisfied. Then he said i'll engage marriage at a very young age. Well, i didn't have a girlfriend, how come will pop up a wife for me?!
Soon, he left with my mum and granny. And i don't understand why.....sweat.....>_<
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Genting Highland Trip!!!
There is nothing very unusual when we go there, just that the LRTs "traffic jam", causing us arrived at the rendezvous place very late, and the bus is gone before we arrived. Because of this, all of the schedules are thrown almost completely chaos. But still, when we arrived at there, we directly check-in the hotel rooms, by breaking into 2 groups, one waiting for check-in while the other have their lunch first.
When everything is ready, we go for our outdoor theme part. First start with Pirate Ship, then went through the Parrot Lane, which we incidentally went through it just for looking for toilets. Then we played Spinning Cups for 2 consecutive times, then the so-called 1st roller coaster in M'sia, Cyclone, the small roller coaster. After that, we played Flying Chairs, then the Corkscrew, the "big" roller coaster. In fact, we want to play the machine that raise you to high high place, then suddenly drop you down one, but due to the unstable weather, the machine is temporarily shut down. Anyway, in the end, we still have the chance to play it.
Well, that's all, going back to sleep again...
When everything is ready, we go for our outdoor theme part. First start with Pirate Ship, then went through the Parrot Lane, which we incidentally went through it just for looking for toilets. Then we played Spinning Cups for 2 consecutive times, then the so-called 1st roller coaster in M'sia, Cyclone, the small roller coaster. After that, we played Flying Chairs, then the Corkscrew, the "big" roller coaster. In fact, we want to play the machine that raise you to high high place, then suddenly drop you down one, but due to the unstable weather, the machine is temporarily shut down. Anyway, in the end, we still have the chance to play it.
Well, that's all, going back to sleep again...
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