My future.....

well, on 20th of December, my family and i went to the PWTC. the main purpose we went there is to see the Satu Malaysia Food Exhibition. but when we went through the gate, lifts etc, i saw the posters of the NanYang Education Fair. Luckily i accompany my family to PWTC, or else i gonna missed the critical step of my forensic scientist carrer...

well, better start from the Food Exhibition 1st.

I woke up as usual on 8.00am, so i goof around the house and the resident area, having the frozen bum(cooked one la) and a cup of milo as my breakfast. usually my family woke up very late, but that day, the neigbour is knocking somethings on the wall. my dad certainly will shout at first. for the first shout he gave off, i though is dream talking, but for the 2nd time, i knew something's goes wrong. i didnt heard the knocking noice, but as i approached my parent's room, i knew what happened.

after that, all of them wake up, and i think: walau, usually wake up very late, but not today...XD.

so i followed them to PWTC for the Food Exhibition. we went through all the stalls, had some mini games etc, then we took big bags and small bags(loots!!! lol...all is reduced prices one) to the education fair.

what surprised me first is, i saw the TAR College is having a stall near the entrance!!! haha, as i went through, a girl gave me a calender, and when i said i am a Tarcian, she stunned, then gave me one more calender!!! haha.

and i goofed around the fair, looking for any college or university that provide forensic science in degree etc. as we went to one of the corner, my mum saw her friend, of course her friend recognized my mum too, so they chit chat a bit. actually, my mum friend(well, he is David) now is working under a agency that help the student to explain, provide informations, choose, apply colleges, and apply Visa in oversea cases. and what more is, ALL FREE OF CHARGE!!! haha, but the loan and money things they didnt handle, but they can provide any necessary information to apply loan etc.

we all spend almost 30 minutes in explaining the process, so i goona post here to share!!!

apply college/university with the result in college >  receive offer letter from the college/university >  apply loan/prepare money >  apply Visa(the money thing is to show the UK government as evidence that you really go to UK for study, not jump aeroplane) >  go to UK!!!  > after 2 years, if have the intention to working in UK, apply Working Hermit(something like this)

so that's that, and i may going to study in Cambridge, well, not Cambridge U, but the college is in Cambridge. first year tuition fee plus all expenses(hostel, eat, etc) cost RM70,000. well, my mum said apply the loan(mostly apply from MCA Education Loan, the reason is the others bank's interest is much higher, the other choice is Bank Rakyat) is for sure, and i promised myself if i go there, STUDY HARD!!! and working part-time to pay my own expenses and next year tuition fees and help my mum to pay the loan too.

so...now i havent send my result to the agency, all these are just for planning only. if success, i may leave on September 2010...hahaha, well, i must study hard now!!!

busy...?!

it's been a while since the last post, just that i am busy...the busy that is never was...

put it in a more easy to understanding way...i am not sure what am i busy for...quite strange huh? the assignments, presentations, blah blah blah things were done last two weeks ago, but i still busying with somethings..maybe the facebook and ps2 drained my time?! XD



11 December
Winnie's birthday
we had a surprise birthday party for one of my group member, winnie leong wei sim, aka winnie the pooh...the pictures will say the words, as i am working now so can't pay too much concentration into blogging...XD

12 December day time
Granny Coming!!!
well, my mother's mother is coming to my home for a few days, i travelled to setapak and back at that day...sweat, pretty tired for travelling...

12 December night time
Movie!!!
well, i am not the excited as usual when i watch movie with my secondary school friends, Joshua, Eddisson, Fei Fei(nick name of course!) and Wai Hon. Fei Fei suddenly inform me that we gonna watch movie that night. the movie? The Storm Warriors...what a lame+boring+not excited+not interesting+bad visul effects+bad story line+.........the list is non-stop. this is second bad movie that i watch since form 4...the first one is Street Fighter: Chun Li legends(something like this). the only thing that i feel is good in this movie is the Wind(聂风）become demon, the eyes look very well.

13 December
go to ulu yam for a delicious lunch!!!

14 December
travelling is more than i can bear!!!
after go back from Torrent's house, i go back to shop for dinner, BUT, i travel back to setapak just to sent my granny back...sweat...

 17 December
Avatar!!!!!
watch the movie Avatar with the same gang again...THIS MOVIE IS AWESOME!!!! STUNNING BACKGROUD! TOUCHING STORYLINE AND MORE!!! WATCH YOURSELF!!!!

18 December
nothing to do in the shop...sian....T_T

haiz...busy to FB abd PS2 again...^_^Y

a why is just a why...

i am not even sure what am i really doing when i click the new post at the dashboard, put it in short, i dont know what to type but i have the thought of post somethings here. now i am really confuse. this kinds of things really rare to happen to me, but i think i am losing my happy-go-lucky trait now. realtionships with friends, family, the tests, assignments, presentations and the list goes on non-stop.

what i really know is, human can't stay forever as they are. time does flow, people does move, survive, struggle for their thirsts, heart does changes, the earth does rotate, sun does burn. but for me, i wish everything can halt, stop. pathetic, absurd, stupid, naive. even i myself also think i am pathetic. but what should i do?

my friends facing problems, but i cant help them.
my family facing problems, but i cant help them.
even now i facing my very own problems, but i still hestitate for my future, hestitate for my current motivations, hestitate for my current activities.

i may started to sound like i am crazy already...

hollow..

i wonder, does anyone feel this kind of feeling before? or now? or even in future?

adj

1.

not solid; having a space or gap or cavity

2.

deliberately deceptive

3.

as if echoing in a hollow space

4.

devoid of significance or point

 

these are the some of the defines from the dictionary

can these apply to human's feeling? or just my imagination? i don't know, i really don't know.

i found up myself is laughing, but am i really happy? or just my muscle invouteerly laughing and the sound just come out? i could feel that everyone is like this, even he or she is your closest one, the best pals, and the soulmates.

why the human is so complex? why the human can't be more simple and easy to understand? just a child, a baby who know nothing but still live very happy without worry? why can't we just stay in our childhood forever and ever till eternity?

is the the civilization caused these things like this? why do i have to sacrified somethings to gain what i don't want? what i want to know is why do we ever exist? can i just end my life to start a new life? can i just vanish, and no one know as i am the oblivion? 

some one said that what you think now will affects your future, the god mind-reading theory. so i wish everythings will turn to nothingness.

CAN SOMEONE END MY SORROW? AND MY THIRST OF NEW LIFE?!