What's the point?

just nothing very significant, but it does bother me...

just two consecutive night i dream about my friends, and i felt it's very real....

about what? nothing particular, just studying....

Recent Activities

well, most of my friends continue their respectively advance diploma while i left out...kinda empty and boring because of nothing else to do but to wait the documents issued from college...

so i would take any chance to go out with friends, although most of the time is i invite them. but before i send the invitation, i and foresee the reply, so the invitation never send out. well, i understand the situation, so i rather dont bother them with somethings that not very significant...

i just completed my personal statement, and i am very frustrated from the begin and to the end...this does not suit my style...the problem i faced every time i write an essay is i dont know how to start, but once i done the first paragraph, everything would be extremely smooth, some times even i can't stop writing because the ideas is keep coming...but this time is different, i had no experience for writing a personal statement....now i understand why the tips i searched from the internet having a almost same meaning introduction..."one the most frustrated essay..", "...you would not want to do it again..."......

well, it cost me almost 2 hours  to complete it with 480 words...i am not sure whether it's too much or too little...i follow standard format (12 font size and times new roman, single spacing), and it just three quarter full on a A4 paper....well anyway...tomorrow i'll go to college and get it a check from my previous teacher....

Tomorrow will be a busy day....

Unofficially First Advance Diploma Day...

When I purposely enter the lecture hall late, I was pounded with questions; "eh?! i thought you said you didn't continue to advance?", "huh? why you come to college??", "aei, Xemnas a, Why you come here?!"

My reaction, of course, answered these question without rephrasing; "got three things to do, check result, apply transcript and get a sign on my reference letter."

But in my mind, i didn't tell anyone but confessed at here, "why can't i go back just paying a visit and have a lunch??" well anyway...

I arrived at college by approximately 8.50am, then i stayed at the new CITC lab, to settle several things, waiting the result to release, print out the reference letter, click Facebook, and help my mum to print out the map of route to visit their relatives (with the help of Google map). Simple enough...

Then 10.05am, a little bit late then my schedule because i gamble on the result will be release before i leave the lab, but still the officers' efficiency are disappointing me...i rushed to Miss Cheng's office, mt previous English Language tutor, to get her sign, since she is the one who do the reference letter for me...Thanks You Miss Cheng...XD

After that, I chatted with Miss Cheng a little bit, well, not a little, just less or more than 30 minutes . I was impressed by her, because i never knew she was staying at UK before. She asked me where i study, and how's the fees everything, the usual staffs. After this, she suggested how to use the remaining time at here since that i didn't find a part time job...

She suggested that i should make some friends via any channels at Chester, so that i can get some helps from them i.e getting to know to the surrounding, settle some daily life issues even can get some cheaper or free daily needs like plates, blanket and bed. Well, since i have the channel of agent, and the power of searching other people's blog online, i believe i can know some of the virtual friends within 2 weeks and gather all of the information within another 2 weeks.

Well, Miss Cheng said the whole progress is gonna to take months to complete, but i assure her that i can done it within 2 weeks to know all of the lifestyle of students in Chester, and befriend with the students there within another 2 weeks...it isn't very hard after all...^_^

I leave Miss Cheng's office on 11.05am, then i go to library to check my result. Actually, I am little disappointed because i got all B+ for all of the subjects i took...it's BM, Forensic Science and Business Management. My CGPA rosed from 3.19 to 3.22...not very satisfying...T_T

Around 11.10am, i started to feel confused, what should i do next? Then i had it in mind: go to lecture hall, have a free cold air then have a lunch with my gang. So i purposely make my self panting by running so that i have a reason of being late to enter the lecture hall. Luckily the lecturer hardly to paid any attention to me...

After the lunch, while impressed by my large fried rice already increase the price from RM3.50 to RM4 while i still paid RM3.50, bid farewell to my gang, chit chat a little bit with other friends, i went to Examination Department to apply transcript, then go to SAS office to request the letter that saying i completed Diploma level...then i when back home alone...

Continue to read Trudi Canavan's The Black Magician Trilogy Book 2: The Novice....nice story actually....

Mr Feng Shui in my house!!!

as title said, my mum bring a Mr Feng Shui to shop, i firstly ignore him first, but soon after i realized that my mum, dad and granny (grandpa go to fishing..) very respect of him. he looked around the shop, gave some comments that i purposely not to heard it. Then he sat down at the counter.

When I stand up, my mum dragged me in, introducing me to him. He asked me to let him to see my palm, and i obeyed. As he examining my palm, i looking at his eyes, well, just ordinary old man's eyes. Then he said out of blue, "don't fight when you age of 22", everybody will be stunned in a very short period. But I didn't said something, then he said something very funny.

He said my fate/destiny is here, and it's is made from last year. I said nothing of course, but i saw my mum looked satisfied. Then he said i'll engage marriage at a very young age. Well, i didn't have a girlfriend, how come will pop up a wife for me?!

Soon, he left with my mum and granny. And i don't understand why.....sweat.....>_<

Genting Highland Trip!!!

There is nothing very unusual when we go there, just that the LRTs "traffic jam", causing us arrived at the rendezvous place very late, and the bus is gone before we arrived. Because of this, all of the schedules are thrown almost completely chaos. But still, when we arrived at there, we directly check-in the hotel rooms, by breaking into 2 groups, one waiting for check-in while the other have their lunch first.

When everything is ready, we go for our outdoor theme part. First start with Pirate Ship, then went through the Parrot Lane, which we incidentally went through it just for looking for toilets. Then we played Spinning Cups for 2 consecutive times, then the so-called 1st roller coaster in M'sia, Cyclone, the small roller coaster. After that, we played Flying Chairs, then the Corkscrew, the "big" roller coaster. In fact, we want to play the machine that raise you to high high place, then suddenly drop you down one, but due to the unstable weather, the machine is temporarily shut down. Anyway, in the end, we still have the chance to play it.

Well, that's all, going back to sleep again...

Aww man....

I am not very sure, but just listening to it make my mind thrilled. Some of you said something like before i leave, you all gonna have a gathering for me. Really, by hearing to that, i both hesitated, and touched.

Some may thinks that i feel thrilled is normal, but what am i hesitated for? I am not very sure about it, but when i state it, then you all gonna say i think too much...XD

I hesitated for am i a precious friend? I don't know, because i just do what i feel the most better for somebody that i care of, that's all. All i had remembered is just some fragments of good memories, but there are tons of bad memories, well, not that much actually.

I just afraid that i do not know how to react when it is real, but as long as it don't go too extreme, i think i am fine with it...

Parking Issue again...

An Aggressive Father +
Pissed Security Guard +
Extremely Low Efficiency and Slow Reaction Maintenance Office =

A LONG LIST OF PROBLEMS +
Foul Mood +
Unnecessary Leg Works

Created by Xemnas Lee, future Genius Interpreter of Human Emotions and Reactions (wakaka o(^_^)o)

I am not bluffing, it's true story, or i put like this; every posts in this blog is true story.

Just something happened when i get back home and the problems arise.

Actually, I have nothing to do for this, i done what i should done, even something that's not in my concern. it's just something that will annoy me, then i'll be dragged into the matters, either willingly or reluctantly, physically or mentally.

For your information, I wouldn't care anything that's not in my business, well at least i do not look at it except i'll figure out the processes, causes, outcomes, solutions, future consequences and interpretation. But i wouldn't say anythings if it is not in my concern. these things come in within minutes, and disappear within another minute, for the case of not in my concerns.

But you could consider that i am kinda gossip people, if i feel interested in that particular matter. But don't worry, i'll judge the matters throughout as well as the consequences etc before i "speaking" aloud. Do not take me as "Lulu"!!! (means blur people)

In fact, i am enjoying judging things, interpret the matters, figure out the solutions, consequences etc. Why i am enjoy you ask? well, simply i enjoy it like you enjoy your hobbies, interested things. You can say that's my hobby.

Some of my friends asked me about i can predict the outcomes, then why your board games such as chess, chinese chess etc skill is suck? Well, i don't like to plan such "brain-consuming" activities, and i not very fond of then as well. But if you ask me to plan your new house's decorations, activities time flows etc, i willingly give my opinions.

Kinda off from topic, but i believe that the matters will be settled when the annual meeting of the resident area is carry out on 18th of May...because i gonna pin point the problems...haiz...wasting my precious sleeping time....T_T

What the F**k!!!!

I do not understand, what's the point of this cold war that break out just for the parking issue?!

The consequences include i upset my secondary school friends, i can't go for my usual jogging for three days in a row, the couples did not speak to each other, and i start to feel annoyed.

For the first consequence, is the one i felt most frustrated with. The girl that gather everyone last week just want to have a small gathering for secondary school friends to tighten the bond. I didn't replied her directly, because i scare of boredom. But later, i make the appointment for her. but just about i going to sleep, the war break out, and i completely lost the mood. and i had to stay so that i can take care the matter. I am really sorry about that. sometime, things happened and i had to take care of it personally.

For the second result, since there are many events that i want to mentally ignore it, physically ignore it but ethically must be accept it, i can't go for my joggings. this is number two that i felt most frustrated with because if i stop jogging for more than 2 days, the consecutive courses will be troublesome to me because the muscle must be trained within 24-48 hours or else it will be reduced it's power, endurance and shape.

The the third effect. they didn't spoke to each other tensed the atmosphere, which will lead to the next consequence, i feel annoyed. Simple enough without any explanation. 

The last one, this is not in the list at first but it'll make its way up to the top. my dad started to thinks that i am the one who should to blame because i didn't settle the things. and his tone is annoying me because i can't fight back. if i do, then a bigger war will be commence. he will say something like "you ask me to do something, i do. But i ask you do something, you'll reject it.", something like that. WTF... it's not my fault, but he just simply blame it to me.

What i want to fight back to him is something like "if you are so brilliant, and i am ridiculously dumb, why don't you do it yourself?!", self-explained what i want to express my feeling. Then he will turn his shame into anger, then scold everyone in the room. 

And i can't make a face of i feel frustrated about the things above, then he'll blame everyone too...i hate he is taking a place like king in a throne, and everyone must follow his words, regardless how stupid and absurd it is. I can make my counters, but it'll backfired to my mum, so, i rather stay quite.

Right now, i feel my parents are very childish, they still taking my opinions like shit, useless piece of shit. They do not know how clear i am when i eavedropping their argument. as they said, the viewers always are more clearer than the individuals involved.

How amusing i think,they are not even know how i interpret things in rationally, ethically and reasonable. why do i am the one who been affected so much for this "catastrophic event"...WTF!!!

Parking Issue?!

Well, as my previous post stated, since my grandparents move in, there is an increment in total number of cars that need a parking in the resident area. Not much, just three, but the parking available that's 2, so that's mean one of the cars (usually is my silvery Myvi) had to park at the visitors' parking. I don't mind walking, in fact, i enjoy them.

It takes about 3-4 minutes for me or longer for my parents approximate 5 minutes to get to the car from my house. But still, there are some inconvenient especially when you need to go out but forced to drive the silver Myvi. When, it require no explanation for inconvenient caused because it's imaginable.

Actually, i did go and apply a entry card(those magnetic card that will allow the user to go in the area), but what's maintenance office said that they need i to write a letter of requesting a new entry card and blah blah blah. I wrote the letter on the spot and a fat guy apparently is the new manager or what so position, as long as he hold most of the authorities guy said he will submit the letter to the head of maintenance office to see whether they approve the applications or not, something like that.

But it's happened few weeks ago, and there ain't any replies yet. Like a stone is thrown into bottomless ocean, just sinking and sinking. Then i don't know what the heck the security guards said to my dad, then my dad "asked"(couldn't find a more suitable word) my mum to go to maintenance office by daytime and ask again.

Maybe my mum's period is around the corner, or actually is the period, or just passed the period, you see, the period the girls will getting their nerves much more easily(or so they said). Or other matters that bother her and caused her have a little foul mood(financial problems, unwillingly spent too much on yesterday's temple festival), then my mum speak in a manner of reluctantly, angry and like mumbling in anger.

Things developed into a small argument, when it's 9pm or so, with the presence of my grandparents sitting in living room. Then in the end, like 12.30am, it become a big big argument, of course my grandparents is asleep. But obviously the arguments wake my granny and me up. For her part, their room doesn't close, and the argument is loud, that's make her wake up. But for my case, i am little surprise, because i wearing my earphone, that plugged into my MP4 player, with some soft musics playing the whole night. I woke up suddenly in fact, my granny already in the conversation with my dad in living room, and my mum pretend to sleep in her room when i peeking. But the things turn worst because my dad eventually speak something like blame himself(i go out and drink alcohol and play with women, his favorite quote), actually i know it's something that speak up when you get angry. Then my mum changed her clothes and attempt to go out, i stopped her of course.

Then my mum go back to room, my dad and granny at the living room. I afraid they will do something "stupid", so i stay awake and sit on a sofa in the small living room at second floor. I didn't go and interpret what they said, but rather, i thinking of the solutions for the problem: Parking Issue. In anyway, I MUST take these thing on myself already, due to several reasons. But i want to know is what is the security guards said my dad, causing him had a relatively furious mood. Maybe that's the source of the meaningless argument.

Enough of the facts, now go to my views of this matter. From what i eavesdropped, i guess to security guards are complaint about the random parking in the resident area. But from my knowledge, three cars of mine doesn't park randomly. there are two cars in the car lot, and my silver Myvi is parked at the visitor's parking, with my expired driving license gave to the guards in order to get the visitor pass to put on the dashboard of the car. I didn't see any problems with that but what's the point of complain the to my dad about the random parking?! Opposite to my house there are a Satia that's always getting in the way because that guy parked outside his house, which is the middle of the road, causing some troubles to park into the car lot. Why i didn't see any actions for that car?? rather settling the matter of the Satia, the guards are annoying my dad that his cars parked randomly. That caused some foul mood to both of my parents.

And as for my parents' argument, my mum might facing some problems as stated on above, so she is talking to dad with a unfavorable manner. And my dad get to his temper, so the argument break out. What i can think is why don't they retreat a step? just because their pride of father and etc causing the argument gradually become meaningless in my view. What they argue about is repeating themselves, like a circle, that's why i must handle the parking issue myself without their interferences. He got his points as well as hers, so what's the point to shout out on each other in the midnight and wake almost everyone up. I don't care us but what about the neighbour's think of the pair? i.e what are they doing or arguing over this not-a-problems problem? shame on you...etc.

Their fire caused their son forced to not having a jogging and can't enjoy a movie time later on...as far as i can see is: 爱得越深，骂地越凶...

Three Relatively suffering nights

Why suffering you ask? nothing particularly, just my mum's mum stay in my house for three nights, put it in short, my grandmother on mother's side. (appear to be longer....)

Since the guest room is occupied by my grandparents on father's side, so she just need to sleep in my room. my bed is queen size bed, but i am not very fond of sleeping with other people by sharing the double bed. but single bed is okay, because i will "flip" myself over the night. if something restrict my movement, i'll just freeze there for entire night. and my backbone is getting on my nerve; i feel very painful when wake up.

luckily,m she just stay for three nights, if she gonna stay longer, then i'll give up on sleeping on my bed, i'll simply sleep at the living room, which is obviously more comfortable. XD

and i just back from relatively long journey from my mum's mum's home, since there are a lot of places to go...started to getting annoyed by the traffic...